Yesterday, I Had A Meltdown

How is your story coming along?  Getting a lot of writing done.  Are you writing everyday?

I want to say that my story is doing great.  I want to say that I am reaching my word count everyday.

That would be a lie.  I lie and tell you that the writing life is awesome.  That would be a lie.

Yesterday, I had a meltdown.   What is wrong with me?

I got up and was ready to write.

I started writing.  I didn't go on line or Facebook.  I was writing and then I thought.  "This is so stupid.  So I backspaced everything I wrote.  I started over.  Then I said.  ""What is wrong with me.  No one is going to read this."  So I backspaced everything I just wrote.

I continued to write.  Then I screamed.  "I am so stupid."  I backspaced everything I wrote.

I am sure that I wrote at least a thousand words all together.

Then I just got mad at myself.  "You are stupid.  No one is going to read this." 

I turned off the computer.  I went into the living room, plopped down in the chair and watched three hours of Parking Wars. 

What is wrong with me?

I wasted an entire day and did nothing, but stare at the tv. 

So this morning I got up.  I am blogging and once again, I am going to write. 

I realize that self doubt is part of writing.  Everyone has self doubt. 

So today is a new day with new beginnings.

So if you have a meltdown, know that you are not alone.  We all have them.  All we can do is get over it and get back to writing.